Another Candle on the Cake

Hello Lovelies.

As y'all are reading this, I'm officially 19 years old.

Wow??

Like I'm legally an adult in the state of Alabama and on top of that have been an "adult" for a year now.

What?

And as I'm getting ready for another year of life, I've come to realize how much everything has changed.

This time a year ago I was fresh out of high school, ready to get to Tuscaloosa, planning on being a sorority, the whole nine yards.

And then life came and laughed in my face.

Year 18 was great one though.

I've grown up a lot.

And I still have a lot of growing to do.

For the first time in my life, this birthday just seems like another day.

Which sounds sad but at the same time I feel like life has taught be so much in this past year, I don't one special day to celebrate it.

Don't get me wrong, I still love cake and presents.

I am still a selfish teenager.

But I've come to realize I don't need this day to be all about me.

And I'm ok with that.

I don't know.

I guess I'm done rambling.

Happy Flag Day everyone and Happy Birthday to me.

Love y'all.

Talk to you soon,

Meghan

“But if you tell folks you're a college student, folks are so impressed." - Chuck Palahniuk

Hello Lovelies!

All through life we're always being told that we're being prepped for the next step.

Elemntary school for Middle School.

Middle School for High School.

High School for College.

And College for the Real World.

And heaven forbid you try to stray off this path.

I'm 18, almost 19, years old.

I just finished my first year at University.

And if last semester was any indication, I have not the slightest idea what I want to do with my life.

Which sends me into an absolute panic.

I'm one of these people that has always had a plan to an extent

And now that I'm reaching this point that I'm questioning my plan, it scares the hell out of me.

People always make it seem like it's so easy to just pack a bag, plan a flight and take off.

And then you can figure it out as you go and when you come back everything will fall into place.

And I wish it was that easy.

But it's not.

But I've decide that I'm going to stop worrying about the future, because that's going to happen whether I sit around panicking about it or not.

My goal is to start making a list of things I want to for me.

And if they fail, well they fail.

But if in the end, I figure out what I want and I end up truly happy, then it'll all be worth it.

Love y'all.

Talk to you soon,

Meghan